One thing I’ve become more aware of since putting my face out on the internet more is how it changes how you see your physical appearance, especially when I hear people say so and so is the ‘face of a brand’. I guess my face is part of my brand, and that’s a weird thing to think about…bear with me here.
I’ve made a lot of peace with my ‘funny’ face, growing up I always thought I didn’t look like the pretty girls, and that if I did look ‘prettier’ boys would like me more, people would want to be my friend, and as you grow up its hard not to associate beauty with being more successful too. I guess I’m bringing this up as 90% of the time I believe all that is utter bollocks yet I’m also aware that there’s a lot of people around me in the industry I work in that encourage these notions, and sometimes its hard not to fall into the trap of believing it. What is pretty anyway? Who gets to define it?
Defining my own standard of beauty is one of the best descicions I ever made for myself. Being online also means that there are a few not so nice chaps who like to point out the physical things about me that don’t fit societys idea of beauty, and even crazier how I should change them. (How Rude!) Obviously its a few individuals and most people are lovely but I’m human and sometimes I have to work really hard to stay true to my own ideals of beauty that I decided on for myself and to hell with anyone who tries to bring me down.
One thing I’ve always tried to be conscious of is never apologising for how I look, especially when I’m filming. I notice a lot of youtubers will apologise for a bad hair day, a spot or oily skin while filming and I just think STOP! Why are you apologising? And yet I’m sure I’ve said those things in the past, but I’m very aware at the moment, when I think to do that, to take a breath and think, this is my face, and I refuse to apologise for how it looks.
No one feels beautiful 100% of the time, but I do my very best to own my beauty and not let other peoples definition of beauty get in the way of my own. Easier said than done at times, but at the end of the day, it’s just a face, and we are all so much more than our looks. I’m finding that as much as I love offering product reviews and sharing looks I find beautiful, I also need this platform to talk about meater things at times.
I think there’s a real fight for diversity within the beauty industry and I really want to be apart of that, on all levels. I’m getting older and my face is changing, and throughout those changes I want to make sure the faces (and bodies) I see selling products are ones I can relate to. I really believe there’s room for everyone. Yes I will never look like Gigi Hadid but thats cool, I don’t need to. I’ve got my own thing going on, and it might not be your cup of tea but thats cool too. Lets just try our very best to appreciate what works for each individual and focus on building each other up rather than tearing each other down.
My Face Is Wearing