Looking back on 2018, I do so with fondness for the memories made and the lessons learnt. While not all the lessons were fun, they were one hundred percent necessary and going into a new year for me personally is no longer about transformation (whether in a physical sense or otherwise) but it is about growth.
2018 feels like the year that Los Angeles really started to feel like home, and I felt the most settled I had felt in a long time. Me and Lindsey saw so much support with our Podcast Full Coverage and we got to interview some amazing beauty professionals, (and of course) enjoyed copious amounts of prosseco while recording our beauty chats in our beloved care bare onesies!
It was a great year professionally for me in lots of ways, but I still found myself comparing at times, and that little devil on my shoulder never let up, whispering time after time ‘you’re not good enough’, ‘you’re not creative enough’ the list goes on, but what I did learn is that while I can hear that voice, I don’t have to act on it. I’m incredibly grateful for every opportunity I’ve been given but I also know deep down that I put the work in and I’ve made the most of those opportunities.
I guess no matter who you are, no matter how old you get, we all still fall victim from time to time to that little voice that wants to make us think we aren’t good enough, that we aren’t deserving of our successes. In 2019 I hope to practice telling that voice to f*** off and to keep moving forward regardless of my insecurities.
On a personal note I feel incredibly lucky for the people in my life who have been there through all the tough lessons, the endless phone calls, the questions, the ‘what ifs’, they helped me find my way without ever trying to tell me what to do. Trusting my gut is something I’d really like to get better at in 2019 (and beyond), most of the time I think we all know how we feel about a situation or what it is we really want but sometimes having the strength to see those things through and follow your gut instinct is the hardest part. I hope 2018 was kind to you and I’m wishing you all the best for 2019, here’s to all of us being brave, going after what we want and not apologising for who we are.
Photos By Kayla Varley
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